You can’t skip chapters.
I read a poem today and that was the first line. You can’t skip chapters. Imagine if you had, what could’ve been different, what different choices would you have made, would you be you?
every person, every decision, every… well everything… has brought you to be the person you are today and regardless of whether you are happy with who you are, at this moment, you are here and that is something.
I for one am not happy, nor am I sad, but I read this poem today and I realized, I’m okay because I looked back and there where moment where I was most definitely not okay. I was in love and then I wasn’t, I was so heartbroken I could barely sleep, I was on top of the world and then I was no one. Yet I made it through that. Relationships have a funny way of affecting us, even when we don’t want them to. They make us weak and teach us humility and they make us strong and teach us self-worth. I don’t think I would be the person I am today if it wasn’t for the boy that broke my heart or the poor man that got caught up in my troubled heart yet taught me, I was worthy of love. And I definitely wouldn’t have evolved into the person I am today if I wasn’t in the relationship I am in today.
It’s hard. Life. Is. Hard.
And it doesn’t stop being hard, but it is also so fucking beautiful. It is so easy for us to look at other people and think “wow this person is perfect” and maybe they are, but we didn’t know them when they weren’t so perfect, so we don’t know if we would’ve love them then.
But you know you, and you know what got you to this moment and this moment is beautiful. Even if you’re hurt, sad, happy, indifferent… whatever you may be feeling, feel it because this is your story and you have all the fucking say in it.
So if you hate, change it.
If you love it, keep it.
If you’re just there, then be there.
There is no rush, there is no timeline, there is only right now.
Claudia Escobedo 